POZ PLANET JANUARY 2021 - includes my article on poz daddies

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" Older guys living with HIV watch, with some indignation, the Truvada whores moving in on the sexual trade: “We are progressive; we take pills and fuck (good-looking) pozzies!” “Go fuck yourself,” spits a strapping 30-something barebacking bear I know in Winnipeg. “Where were you when I was sad, lonely, horny and undetectable? "

 "One of the first things you notice about Francisco Ibáñez-Carrasco, 47, is the multicoloured fish tattoo on his neck. In his early twenties, getting inked was his way of side-stepping a boring, conventional life. “The idea was that no one would hire me to work in an office,” explains the cheerful HIV researcher over a plate of nachos at Hair of the Dog pub in downtown Toronto’s gay village..." 

"No other hold than the kindness of strangers" 3 minutes about my mother and my origins.

I made "The Body Remembers" in 1997. I had KS all over my boy at that time and was preparing to die. My American lover, Phillip Barden Jr. had died the night before the event highlighted here in 1991.

I always try to say the right thing, until I stop.

"Nobody" memoir?

"In the ever-stretching constellation of autobiographic, memorializing, autopathographic writing, celebrities and victims and heroes reign, but a new type of memoir -- one from the everyday person -- has emerged proudly. Mine is one of them. I might be known in my scientist circle, or maybe even wider, but I am no Bill Clinton talking about AIDS or Greg Louganis or [Sean] Strub or [Michael] Callen, etc. Mine is a nobody's memoir for the everyday person."

When the same excerpt was published in an online HIV poz site, I almost got fired from my job! They didn't like my defense of barebacking before U=U became a thing.

The superb photographer and my friend Giovanni Caprioti made this short video in 2015

In 2014, 5 years after moving from Vancouver, British Columbia to Toronto, Ontario, the amazing American AIDS magazine A&U (Arts & Understanding) published an advance of my memoirs about living on Commercial Drive in the East Side of Vancouver

Revista DEBATE is the only Latinex media that has ever interviewed me in Canada. Thanks!

 I figure I am too out there, too white Latinex, too queer, and now too old LOL!

Forever grateful to be in Zena Sharman's 

Lambda Literary Award winner collection "The Remedy"

"To remedy means to heal, to cure, to set right, to make reparations.

The Remedy invites writers and readers to imagine what we need to create healthy, resilient, and thriving LGBTQ communities. This anthology is a diverse collection of real-life stories from queer and trans people on their own health-care experiences and challenges, from gay men living with HIV who remember the systemic resistance to their health-care needs, to a lesbian couple dealing with the experience of cancer, to young trans people who struggle to find health-care providers who treat them with dignity and respect. The book also includes essays by health-care providers, activists, and leaders, with something to say about the challenges, politics, and opportunities surrounding LGBTQ health issues."

Forever grateful to be in Mattilda's 

Lambda Literary Award winner collection " WHY ARE FAGGOTS SO AFRAID OF FAGGOTS?: Flaming Challenges to Masculinity, Objectification, and the Desire to Conform "

"Gay culture has become the ultimate nightmare of consumerism, whether it's an endless quest for Absolut vodka, Diesel jeans, rainbow Hummers, pec implants, or Pottery Barn. As backrooms are shut down to make way for wedding vows, and gay sexual culture morphs into “straight-acting dudes hangin’ out,” what are the possibilities for a defiant faggotry that challenges the assimilationist norms of a corporate-cozy lifestyle?."

"My back is a bridge between a turbulent past and emerging vibrant queer generations. Typically, I have filtered all my experience, knowledge and skill through sex, sexuality, illness, and social class. These are the moving forces in my life. They are my political foundations with which to understand pandemics, politics, global warming, stigma, violence, racism, and the minutia of the everyday. In this article, I intend to tie into knots several nerve endings related to ageing, queer men, and being long-time HIV positive (POZ) to see how they come together to compose the body and mind of a “daddy”. A Frankenstein daddy. "

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